Maybe this will help!

I bought myself new running shoes in hope that i will actually try to start running on a regular basis

so nice! 

I suck at running!

There is one thing i despise and hate more than anything else and  always have and that is running.....I am slow and i  am always  coming  in very last and  it hurts my knees and my hips and i just hate it! It is the  one thing that  i just can not seem to enjoy   no matter what i do! some how i just have to figure it out and start running more because  it is the only way i will ever get any better at it! On the other hand training is getting much better ... not easier just better... i am  finally starting to understand more about jiu jitsu and the goal  and flow of it ... and i'm not getting my ass  easily handed to me every time..... it still gets handed to me just not right away .... now i can at least hold off the  submission for a bit lol....I did purchase a new Gi  and am pleased to say  i am down 2 Gi sizes since i started in April .... and also the new gi has made me actually want to go to  gi class .... I am not seeing a lot of weight loss  recently but   i can still feel myself getting smaller ....and also i am trying to improve on the nutrition still....I have  improved from my last post  for sure but am not  all the way  back to where i should be on it .... I have a feeling that once i am able to get  back on the best track i can be on  food wise i will start seeing big losses again! also i think i need a  weight training buddy .....

and here is a pic of my new gi .....It is from BreakPoint  for those that may want to know

As always  to those who   continue to read and support  Thank you so much .....and here is to  continuing to get stronger in mind and body!

Is there any diffrence?

This pic was about a month ago

                                                                 This pic was yesterday

I dunno at this point i can't tell much of a diffrence at all!

ouch!

I have fallen off the wagon and damnit it hurts to admit that! everytime i have tried to get back on i just keep slipping..... it is time to get serious again.....operation 365 re-commence!
 I only have 292  days left!  i know that seems like a lot but truly it is not ... i should be 60  plus days into  a 90 day program instead i have  screwed around and  eaten badly for the last few weeks and  for about a 2 week period   i  slacked  at the   gym..... i haven't lifted once in about a month....I don't know why i let myself  slack like that but i just keep  making the wrong choices!  I can do this i know i can.... I never thought i would be able to quit smoking but after almost 14 plus years of smoking.. yes i started smoking at 12 ....i did it ..   and about  6 months after i stopped.... for about  3 weeks i picked it back up again ....and then i needed a lil bit of a reality check and i quit once more and i  haven't picked them up since..... maybe this  lil period is just the same thing ..... i needed a lil reality check to let me know its so very easy to slip back into  bad habits so i need to constantly  work at making the right choices! I need to work on my willpower!