Making it Count!

so far i am just trying to take this one day at a time and try to make the right  positive choices  every single day! so far its been 2 and half weeks and i am down 23 pounds ..... i have been trying to hit at least 2 sessions a day..... cardio and weights in the morning to mid afternoon and  classes at night! I started training with a  personal trainer at Anytime Fitness and lets just say  he has taken my weight training up to a whole new level ..... i've been very good with my nutrition  , other than monday night , which turned into a movie date night ... i did indulge in some popcorn and then we had schlotzskys .... but other than that i have been on point! still having trouble getting use to trying to eat 5 times a day  and  also  hitting my macros  but  it is a work in progress.... I am officially  2.6 pounds away from my lowest weight ... i have been here before and some how have always managed to sabotage  myself and  back track!  not this time ... staying focused!

HOLY CRAPOLA...... IT HAS BEEN TO LONG!

I had all  but forgotten about my blog here but in attempt to get myself back on track  i decided to perhaps restart writing down my fitness journey   hoping to stay more accountable..... the truth is this last year  has been a roller coaster of ups and downs..... Its been 2 steps forward and 2 steps back with me.... I will get extremely motivated  and drop some weight and then  have a bad month of it.....  eating like shit and  not exercising, not counting calories, and being generally a lazy ass! Then i wake up and say WTF  MO!!! and decide to be  super motivated again!  I'm so tired of the yo-yo ... i need to  really commit to a life change and just do it already! So far this week i have been on track ..  i went to all the  BJJ, KB, and  MMA classes that my schedule would allow and i also started back at the gym!  Also i was accepted to be a beta tester for a new fitness program by fitness guru Jeremy Reid! Basically i have committed to do exactly as he says and  eat Exactly what he says  when he says it ... i am looking forward to the ass kicking!

I just need to remind myself this is a marathon and  i am in it  for the long haul .....i have to recommit myself  daily to making the right  choices and remembering that Today is the first day of the rest of my life and there is no time like now to start! I know  once i really get started and  start seeing the changes again that it will help me  stay on track!  So here is to  staying motivated and getting fit.....

Shame is the name of my game!

2 and a half months ....... that is the amount of time that i fell of the wagon this time.... and lets just say that i am only partly back on i've got one foot still draggin behind hanging on for dear life trying to pull myself back up on it!

 In the beginning of  October  i started the process of getting my teeth fixed which  started with having my wisdom teeth pulled and  from the day that it happened i was off .....It was one excuse after another not to get my ass back in the gym or eating correctly ... i was in pain from all my dental work.... i was abusing my pain meds.... i had a bad week at work... then i wrecked my car and didn't have a ride to the gym ... and then i got bronchitis..... all of these things happened and all of these things I used as an excuse to  sit my lazy ass at home on the couch watching Netflix and gaining weight back eating Fritos and telling myself next week ill  start again! and before i knew it  2 and half months had passed!

So here i sit no further along in my challenge  and  68 days  wasted ..... do you know how much cardio and training i could have done in 68 days! my  nutrition sucks and i  haven't even begun to try to  eat clean again!
 I am back in training though... I've hit 5  classes this week and plan to hit another 1 or 2 tomorrow! and i also plan to go grocery shopping and get stuff to start eating clean again in the morning......i have to kick sodas again....as well ... DAMNIT... Curse  you Dr. Pepper.... you bastard with your addictive chemicals and sugar!

I think the fact that i stopped counting calories and that i also stopped blogging made it  very easy to not be accountable for my actions! so here we go again!  we still have a good 4 and half months left  of the 365 days ..... and regardless i am still doing stuff everyday that i never thought i would! Maybe ill try to look at this like its a fight......... Its me  against my old self.......  and i am gonna kick his ass......

Round 2.... DING DING .....

This is the first time i have ever....

posted a half naked picture ..... yeah its not pretty yet ... its a work in progress... if you don't wanna look then don't .... but I am proud of  all the hard work i have put in ..... everyday  getting closer to the body and life i know i can have!

Maybe this will help!

I bought myself new running shoes in hope that i will actually try to start running on a regular basis

so nice! 

I suck at running!

There is one thing i despise and hate more than anything else and  always have and that is running.....I am slow and i  am always  coming  in very last and  it hurts my knees and my hips and i just hate it! It is the  one thing that  i just can not seem to enjoy   no matter what i do! some how i just have to figure it out and start running more because  it is the only way i will ever get any better at it! On the other hand training is getting much better ... not easier just better... i am  finally starting to understand more about jiu jitsu and the goal  and flow of it ... and i'm not getting my ass  easily handed to me every time..... it still gets handed to me just not right away .... now i can at least hold off the  submission for a bit lol....I did purchase a new Gi  and am pleased to say  i am down 2 Gi sizes since i started in April .... and also the new gi has made me actually want to go to  gi class .... I am not seeing a lot of weight loss  recently but   i can still feel myself getting smaller ....and also i am trying to improve on the nutrition still....I have  improved from my last post  for sure but am not  all the way  back to where i should be on it .... I have a feeling that once i am able to get  back on the best track i can be on  food wise i will start seeing big losses again! also i think i need a  weight training buddy .....

and here is a pic of my new gi .....It is from BreakPoint  for those that may want to know

As always  to those who   continue to read and support  Thank you so much .....and here is to  continuing to get stronger in mind and body!

Is there any diffrence?

This pic was about a month ago

                                                                 This pic was yesterday

I dunno at this point i can't tell much of a diffrence at all!